Mom and I were laughing. We hadn’t spent any time together lately, and to be sitting beside her, exchanging offensive jokes was a welcome distraction. Mom was living by herself in a quaint apartment north of Montreal. I was living with my girlfriend in the heart of downtown. We were both working, both caught up … Continue reading
You have harmonized your weakest beat, and have freed yourself from the blues; your death plays on constant rotation. Get up to a different song, switch the catalog, mute the void, count cadence skip a beat downbeat out beat play outside The Multiplication Table. Abstracting your death numbs the pain. A gut-ripping trip back to your legacy, … Continue reading
It was this Do Make Say Think song that played when I began writing this post. Listen to it while you read – it might [somewhat] convey the peaceful mood I was in at the time. They’re also Canadian. Everything I own and know, I brought along to Nova Scotia – overpacked suitcases of underwear to … Continue reading
Last year, our family took a vacation in Nova Scotia. It was my first visit to the Maritimes. We toured a historical village, we swam in the ocean, and Le Clown touched a horse – I even saddled one… I showed these Maritimers what Le Clown was made of: pure-manly-man-testosterone-man-over-animals fibers. I made Darwin smile in his … Continue reading
“That is perhaps what we seek throughout life, that and nothing more, the greatest possible sorrow so as to become fully ourselves before dying.” ― Louis-Ferdinand Céline, Journey to the End of the Night I visited my father’s grave for the first time yesterday – 16 years after his death. We stayed a whopping 20 minutes, tops. … Continue reading